WARNING: completely disrespectful and heretic post up ahead, if you are a Christian and don't want to be offended, I suggest you get the hell outta here. Was I under the influence of the devil when I wrote this? No I was just letting my demon roam free and I wrote down my thought of what 11 years of being in the church has made me.
Then suddenly this floodgate just fucking burst open inside of me and I started spitting out everything even my fucking thoughts…
I was 3 when they brought me to Sunday school. It was my aunt's idea because I didn't have many friends where I was living, most of them were adults. So she thought that it would be good to have me mingle around with kids my age. I never complaint about Sunday school even though I don't know what the fuck is going on there, the bottom line is you get presents and candy every week.
Come secondary school, I was fucking promoted to bible class. Bible class if a whole different kind of ball game, they don't give you sweets and coloring to do anymore, instead they fill your head with scary things about the fucking bible, how the fucking world is going to end and if you don't fucking accept the lord as your fucking savior. When the world fucking ends you are going to be cast into a lake of fire, you would die but you are going to be burn over and over again. But before that the fucking rapture will happen and everyone whom you ever love here is going to be caught up to the sky, you and the other sinful non Christian are going to be left behind to suffer before dying a horrible death in the hands of the Antichrist. Then you will be judge in front of every fucking one with all your fucking secrets and sins exposed. All these will happen to you if you don't accept Christ as your fucking Savior.
Fuck peace within, there are no peace, my nightmares about the fucking end of the world have only started and it kept on eating me like cancer for so long. I accepted Christ as my fucking savior that year and I was baptize a few months after that.
I was given more responsibility in church. They say that you should fucking serve according to your gifts in the house of the lord and by then I was serving in the music ministry and also as a youth leader. I was sent to music camps, youth leadership camps, bible schools and all sort of those shit that Christian organize during school breaks. Even before I left school, I was already an elite camper and went to these camps as camp adviser rather than just a regular camper. All these have made me so fucking familiar with the holy bible; ask me a fucking story or passage from it and I can pin point where it is taken from and even tell you what it fucking means.
So you think that I am sick? At least I am just thinking about the “what if's”; you should be really worrying about those who are already lurking inside your churches and some of them don't necessarily get off by fondling or molesting kiddy genitals; I heard finger fucking undeveloped genitals are the in thing for pedophile. Read the news, maybe you will see that most of these child molesters and rapist are actually religious teachers or priest hiding behind their beliefs.