this unnamed feeling

Time: 3:19am

Circumstance: 2 days without painkillers

"I have been here before, but I couldn’t say I like it. Let me start writing this down and let me jack you into my world and will you please tell me I am uncrazy. I go frantic in my sleep, I hear loud voices in my head that wouldn’t quiet down, I cannot sleep with a head like this, I rage, I graze, I hurt and I am trying to hate it all away. but the chills kicks in and the shivers and pain are taking all over my body again, I try so hard to turn my eyes inward to see what is going on inside of me. It has only been two days but I can already feel this feeling coming alive. And when this unnamed feeling comes alive, I die a little more…"

- xniquet on his addiction