is there room in my life for one more breakdown?

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the other day, a friend came over to see how I was doing and he was “surprise” to see that i look like shit. I mean I should be looking like shit considering that I have a broken feet and sepsis. But he told me it was a different kind of shit. Dry and pale skin, cracked lips, massive dark rings under my eyes damn but all I am only all worried about now is the massive pores on my face ...sigh!!! All the facial courses and products I paid for are all gone . Anyway, he told me that I could be under some spell because he could feel some sort of unease presence around me, WTF!!! But besides feeling sick and bored at home, I think I am pretty much alright. But he gave me a list of symptoms that you might be under some kind of black magic, I thought to myself if I am already deep into this spell thing will I be able to realized the symptom myself? So just in case, here is the list of symptom when a person is being attacked under black magic. I mean it is so common here, that some people are using black magic to help their business and love life. Rumors has it a transvestite hair salon is so good because the owner uses black magic to trap their customer. Anyway, it is better to be safe than sorry, so here are some symptom that you are being attacked by black magic, you might wanna remember to consult your family witch doctor

Initial stages of possible Black Magic or Spirit Activity

Your sleep is disturbed [checked]
Fatigue and lack of energy to live day-to-day life [checked]
You have Fear [checked] fear of boredom , who doesn’t ?
Disinterest in life [checked]
Hopelessness
You are irritated for no reason [checked] try not going out for 3 weeks
You get angry for no reason [checked] should when you are in pain
Severe Depression [checked]
Dryness of mouth at night [checked]
Obesity in some cases Sudden Chills and Goose Bumps [checked]
at night Tightness around body parts
You start forgetting things in the spur of the moment and experience memory loss [checked] lots of ‘em lately
Your access to the dream world is blocked: No remembrance of dreams when you wake up
Your professional career suffers
Blockages in the inflow of money

Advance Stages of Black Magic/Spirit Activity

You dream of dead bodies and horrible looking people who want to kill you in your dream
You dream of snakes & dirty places [checked] hell yes
Waking up suddenly in fear with shortness of breath [checked] it has been always like that Dreaming of falling from Heights
Dreaming of Snakes, Scorpions & Spiders [checked] fucking snakes
You see black dots or smoke flying all over The stomach bloats like a pregnant women's belly and the area right above the navel tightens up & when touched feels like a golf ball is in there Tightness and heaviness specially in shoulders and chest [checked] sometimes
Extreme hunger in case entities have taken charge of your body
Constant headache
Your complexion darkens Itching, burning and stinging pains in different parts of the body [checked]
In case serious black magic is being done to kill you, You will notice that Crows will cross your path from left to right while travelling or they would crossover from left to right, flying right above you, at times they would have a piece of flesh or some other solid matter in their beaks.

Final Stages of Spirit Possession/Black Magic with very little recovery time left

Cancer of blood or other body parts
Shrinking and malfunctioning of kidneys
Excessive alcohol consumption resulting in liver damage
Substance Abuse
Heart Attacks resulting in sudden death Medicines do not work baffling the medical practioner: resulting in doctors using stronger treatments
Suicidal attempts or thoughts of self destruction [checked]

No brainer

When you keep going back to the same hair salon even filled with transvestite s even when you don’t need a haircut and also the transvestite s there is as big as you and looks like that can single handedly held you down against your will type.

I reckon all the witch doctors who graduated from witch school will go out of business pretty soon because the world itself is good enough to kill you. Why employ a witch doctor to do what the world offers for free. Anyway, I got no time for black magic or any voodoo shit like that; I gotta recover quickly because I just can’t wait to be back on the board and saddle again. There is just no time in my life for another breakdown.

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Been listening to Marilyn Manson’s Eat Me , Drink Me a lot last few days, why because not only this album is inspired by the German Cannibal Armin Meiwes. The title itself is states that this CD is inspired by Lewis Carroll’s Alice in Wonderland. I am almost finished with it and moving on to the sequel which is Alice through the looking glass. Will let you all in the secrets of Alice later,

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++update: thanks again to all who expressed their concern, but my death wish didn't come true and i am still here. Special thanks to Gary who visited me and gave be an unorthodox gift ( a basket full of medicine.) I had my fair share of fruits baskets but medicine you are the first. Not only my line is so bad and my brain isn't functioning too well too that is why there isn't any updates, one will come pretty soon. above is a little something that i have been up to lately. Will update this post again later but for now i wanna thank bobo for pointing out the white rabbit for me. Thanks dear you read my mind :P

The answer for the rabbit is here.

what your mind says?
do you sometimes think you are slightly mad?

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faster, faster, i am late...down the rabbit hole

note: there is a white rabbit in the picture above can you find it? to Esther, no it isn't the one in the black box, try again...



I bet most of you should have read or at least know what is "Alice in Wonderland", it was one of my favorite fairy tales to me. Things was so weird and loco in it that as a child it was fascinates me. But as you grow older, you tend to see that those fairy tales of old doesn't seem to be so weird after all, because the things around you now, is weird and loco and we are not in wonderland but in the real world. I don't know how Lewis Carroll ever wrote Alice in Wonderland but there is a theory that he was on crack when he wrote it. Although Carroll invented Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland for the entertainment of children, many scholars have discovered various underlying influences in his work. The books have been explained from all kinds of viewpoints, like drug use, Freudian influences, mathematics, political satire, sex and pedophilia, nonsense, etc. The books have always been a favorite subject for analysis, as the story lends itself to various interpretations. So i have already downloaded the whole 12 chapters of Alice's Adventure in Wonder and will be trying to see how deep the rabbit hole is. IF you don't wanna be scar by the fond memories that Alice in Wonderland had given you , i suggest you take the blue pill which is to stay clear of the next few post, but if you wanna know something grotesque, twisted yet true, take the red pill and i will show you how deep the rabbit hole really goes. in the drug culture, to go down the rabbit holes means to take drugs...




FAQ: About the author Lewis Carroll, was he on crack when he wrote Alice in Wonderland?

Answer i found: No. Carroll did not use drugs while writing the story. The larger part of the story was invented when he was on a boat trip with a friend, the real Alice and her sisters. He invented it while they rowed. The drug rumor was first spread in the 1960's by supporters of the then new LSD subculture. The rumor is believed to have originated from the psychiatrists who introduced LSD into our society.Some people insist that one has to be on drugs to write such a creative story. But why shouldn't someone have a creative mind of his own? If Carroll was on drugs, the Alice books would probably be a series of rambling, disconnected, surrealist scenarios. But the Alice books are far from random. They contain some very intricate logic problems and very clever puns (not to mention Alice's journey in "Through the Looking-Glass", which follows the moves of a chess game), that could only be the work of a sharp mind in full control of its abilities. Furthermore, you'll find the same style of writing in the magazines he wrote in his youth, his various poems, stories, and other writings, and especially in the letters he wrote. If the Alice books were drug induced, the rest of his voluminous output would seem to suggest he was on drugs 24/7. There is indeed one part in the book that may describe the use of drugs: the hookah smoking Caterpillar who advises Alice to eat from the mushroom. But with the story Carroll made fun of all aspects of society, and it may be possible that he was just reflecting the age with this part (note that this chapter wasn't even part of the original story, but was added later!). In the Victorian era there were no drug laws like we know them. Opium, cocaine, and laudanum (a painkiller that contained opium) were used for medicinal purposes, and could be obtained from a pharmacist. Mind that LSD was not even invented yet! So in Carroll's days it was not uncommon to experience the effect of being 'high', whether or not accidentally. However, it was definitely not Carroll's intention to write a book about drugs: he wanted to entertain a little girl whom he loved. No evidence has ever been found that linked Carroll to drug use. Even in his diaries, Carroll has never made any reference to the use of drugs.

Alright, so he isn't puffing the magic dragon or doing the bong of destiny, so what is he under?

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