All the picture seems to get this funny flash on that day during the service
I am finally back from US. Things there are pretty much settled, Michael is finally lay to rest in his place of birth and I had my chance to say my last goodbye. After having an almost 20 hours flight time shoved up my ass, it was touchdown Narita Airport early this morning, I manage to get a couple of hours of sleep before I heading to the studio for a meeting today. Now I feel like a whore who has just finished servicing 3,000 black clients. My face is dry and felt like fish scale and my bloody pores are showing. I wonder if all the SKII miracle water and Aloe Vera serum in the world could ever put my face back together again.If a woman loses her voice she will sound like a transvestite, if a man loses his voice he might turn into a baritone, for me now I think I sound like a tranny singing in the baritone section. But the most disturbing thing I found out today is when I stepped on a scale, god damnit I dropped another 3kgs and I haven’t even gain back the ones I lost when I was sick last time. Shit, does that mean I have to give up dreaming of becoming you know who? I must start eating everything in sight to get back my weight.
Anyway, all good things have to come to an end, even the gross, the sick and the grotesque too. This is will be the last post under the red groteskes.
3am and there is no one around, I am left alone to fight my demons, I just wish that the day will keep it's trust, but for now I feel like a car crash, my wheels are turning but I am upside down. I toss and turn but I just cannot sleep, maybe I am just hypnotized and I’m paralyzed by a different beat. I like to think that my whole biological clock is being messed up big time because I was traveling from time zone to time zone, I started at GMT +8, then I moved on to GMT+9, just about I was getting use to it, I had to travel to GMT-5 and by tomorrow I will be in another new time zone again, Central time (GMT-6). I am flying to Denver later today and where finally Mike will be lay to rest in his hometown. I am still tossing and turning and I just can’t ignore the echo of thoughts of what I am going to say at the funeral service. I think I will leave that when I am on the plane to Denver, but for now I am better off drifting into dreamland and thinking about Someone :)
This is my first time in New York; I have always dream of coming here but surely not under these circumstances. I never would have thought that there are so many sorts of people living around in the world until I hit the streets of New York. If New York is a bowl and the people living there is the food, the dish would definitely be a “Rojak” (all mixed up dish). The best thing was when it was just about to rain, suddenly a bunch of people just popped out of nowhere selling umbrellas. A minute ago they weren’t even there but suddenly the streets are filled with umbrella peddlers. Everyone seem to be rushing or trying to catch a train to somewhere, just like Japan, the only difference is inJapan everyone seems to be in a black suit and trying to portray the corporate look, but here everyone seems to be themselves. It kinda reminds me of when I was running the rat race in KL, I didn’t have the spark and fire in me like the people here. So yes, I chase for the train to get to work, from 9 to 5 I only strife only to stay awake. The motivation I had for work was the pay check at the end of the month so that I can pay out my almost maxed out and scratch-fill credit cards. But it was different here, it makes the child inside me dare to dream and believe he can fly. Everyone dreams big here; no wonder it is a great city.Now I really get what Mike mean when he always ask me to dream like New York and aim for the stars.
"How many times, have you tried and failed, have you watch your dreams fade away? Every hero falls, every soldier crawls but remember every dreamer will dream again, there is no failure , unless you quit dreaming, so dream out loud" -Mike
Another thing, there’s street performance almost everywhere like in the train stations, parks, alleys and overpasses. You will get to see and heard all sort of music being played. Especially acoustics. (I simply just love acoustics) This guy Larry Wright the famous street drummer makes about $300 a day as a street musician, If a guy can sit on a stool and bang a bucket for a living, I think I can be one of street musician and try my luck by hitting the streets. I guess it would be interesting, will then you guys about it. Whether I get some spare changes or will I get egg.
Larry Wright bangs the bucket all night long, watch it on YouTube
And Finally to answer the most important question that someone asked me today:
It was really a cold night when I touch the ground at JFK’s. I left at night and after almost 15 hours; I reach New York about midnight just in time to go to bed again. I was so damn exhausted from the flight not because I didn’t sleep; in fact I slept from the start till the end, so much so that I didn’t bother waking up for the meals. But my mind was just sore and tired, thinking about Michael. It was like an emotional rollercoaster ride thinking about the time that we had together and how he was practically the one who given me support and encouragement. He was a superb musician, a great counselor and most of all a friend. He was like a brother that I never had, he was family. I wouldn’t have been doing what I am doing now if it wasn’t his nudge, I would have still be a beach bum back in Kuantan. The last time we spoken was 2 months ago, he sounded so happy. He found someone special and he planned to come visit me and he really wanted me meet his other half. He told me how he misses the midnight surfing at the beach which left us shivering but was easily remedied by the hot Tom Yum Soup by the beach; singing Karaoke at Megamall’s K-box along side with all the other screaming Mat Rockers (I tell you, you don’t usually see an Ang Mor do that at all); having food with the head and face of the food still intact; eating Asian Oyster which was a lame name for SI HAM (Kerang) and eating Durian and washing it down with a bottle of coke (made him puke like hell). He told me that he was ready to do it all over again. But things don’t always turn out the way you wanted it to be. As all these thoughts races across my mind, I felt tight across my chest and I was fighting to breath.
I swear to God, with all the emo shit that is building up in my head, I really couldn’t think straight. With only USD40 in my wallet and the rest was still in Yen, I was trying to find my way to Mike’s church, which was in Manhattan and I do not know what is the fucking distance between it and JFK airport. It could be fucking miles away or just down the block and with just 40 buckaroos I don’t think it can take me very far but I was going to run on faith and get a cab anyway. But thanks to Bunny who knock some sense into me telling me to be safe than sorry. I guess I should withdraw or change some money before taking a cab but before that I called up Mike’s church and thank god there was some one, and they were so kind to send someone over to pick me up. When I reached the church, I didn’t have anywhere to go for the night so they set me up in one of the co-worker’s office; I had the whole couch to myself, it wasn’t very comfortable but it beats being out in the cold. There will be a service for Michael later on today, so I better try to get as much sleep as possible.
Mikey berposing outside a Kbox booth, getting ready to sing our favorite song there, U2’s With or Without You. But instead of singing we ended screaming, cause I didn’t wanna lose to the Malays in the next booth who was screaming Search’s Isabella
As some of you might already know that I am heading to Boulder tonight to attend Michael’s Funeral. I will be off to JFK first, then I am supposed to meet someone from the Metro New York House of Prayer, and they will arrange for me to get to the city of Boulder, Colorado. All my bags are packed and I am just hours away from leaving. Anyway, someone has been a big time influence on my choice of music these last few days, Now I find myself instead of sticking my tongue out and head banging to Marilyn Manson, I am tapping my feet and occasionally having the urge to dance to Glen Miller or Sinatra's tune. I was never a big fan of Jazz and swing but that doesn’t mean I won’t give it a go; and now I slowing getting the “swing” of it all. I have jammed pack my iPod with feet tapping and ass swinging jazz tunes for the fly, so if you are on the same flight with me to New York tonight and if you feel like you have just hit an air bubble, no it is just me listening ,tapping my feet and swinging my ass to Harry Connick Jr. Looks like I have been all jazzed up by the Jazz bug, but someone has been bitten by the typo bug, so we are even now :D
Here's a little something for you Patrick Star Lovers
Thanks to Calv for sharing Cafe del Mar's tune, they are great, now I can just lay back and enjoy the flight. I love the song " Love Rain Down"
I believe that losing weight is not as complicated as it seems; but some whine and cry about how all the program doesn’t seem to work and how they are just cut out to be overweight. Losing weight just like having sex isn’t rocket science. If you explain this simple weight losing theory to a kid, I bet they will understand it too.The theory is simple.
Calories intake more than Calories Usage
Need I say more? This will only make you fatter and most of us believe that Carbohydrate makes us fat and we follow Aitken’s low Carb-diet, but why are they so many people got fatter after going for the low-Carb diet? Carbohydrate are the food that makes you feel full and satisfy, thus people who uses this diet will tend to eat more of the other stuff to feel satisfy, making the calories intake more than usage.
Calories intake equal Calories Usage
You are going nowhere; might as well gain some weight at least that is also progress.
Calories intake less than Calories Usage
This is the easier way to lost weight, but of course if you want to target a specific area or sculpt your body like say Triple H (Jeng Jeng Jeng, Spit Water), hitting the gym is the best way. Building up muscle and let the muscle eat the fats away. It is the less expensive way of getting a slim figure. But if you have extra cash, you can opt going to so slimming centre to try out their slimming “wanton” wraps.
Now that you know that using weight is easy but the temptation of food and laziness is the killer, start counting your calories intake if you really wanna lose weight. Here’s something to get you started, we all fucking know that sex is an aerobic activity and there are plenty of sources that telling you how much calories you burn while having sex, but they don’t say much about how much calories we burn making the move to have sex.
ACTIVITY CALORIES BURNED
Phone sex9
If: -Doing it from a car while driving add 22
-While trying to Parallel Park add 80
Respectful rubbing 17
If:
-In the elevator add 30
-Doing it while standing position on a train add 80
Frantic groping 40
If:
-Lights are off add 60
Removing her bra 11
If: -You can’t figure out how it opens add 50
Buying condoms 6
If: -You are shy or self-conscious add 55
-You don’t know your size add 108
Talking dirty to each other 16
If: -In a British accent add 1.5
-In Mandarin add 3
-In Teo Chew add 5
Insert diaphragm 4
If: -She does it add 14
-He does it add 572
-It pops out add 11
Chasing the popped out diaphragm 67
If: -Retrieving it from under the bed add 80
-You don’t know where it went and you were going to have sex with someone other than your girlfriend or wife and your girlfriend or wife is coming home in a couple of hours time add 99999999999999999++
Firstly, sorry for the lack of updates, because I have been really caught up with the upcoming single’ release which is by the end of the first quarter of 2008. I will be heading to Boulder, Colorado this weekend to attend a very close friends funeral. Currently Kenichi is out of town working on another project and Norie is up north visiting her parents. So I pretty much spent my time here working on and whacking off to my own songs.
And my views on the incident that happened in Innit which I like to call it WAWASAN INNIT 2020, you can bring the horse to the water but you can’t make it drink the water. (If you don’t understand what I am saying, just go read about post that whine and cry about that incident and you will understand) Anyway, aren’t you all not a bit curious that all the sex post got the top most post in on that day got 20 Nangs each? My sources said that INNIT had just been owned by a group of “nangers” somewhere who is trying to make a statement. The aftermath is you see people sitting on their back in their tight underwear or panties like their pubic hair is all tangled up, whining, crying and blogging about who pee in their morning breakfast bowl. Yes, the blog has given us the power to whine and cry, bitch, criticized and bad mouth about others, and it sure hell gives us the right to blog about sex and perversion. It really is up to the readers to choose what they wanna read. A very famous person once said, “What good is the internet if not for watching fucked up sex that you never going to have“, I don’t know how true is that but I am sure hell know a lot of people are doing it. If you ask me to choose between a post that talks about sex or a post which is good only for badmouthing or criticizing another human being. I’ll go for the porn man, because I have never believed in talking shit about human being. Because no we are not a unique snowflakes, deep down inside we are all made up of the same organic shit. But it is how we bring ourselves and treat each others that make us stand out from the rest. In other words respect.
Okie, enough whining, *changes tight underwear and straighten tangled pubic hair* I feel like a bitch now, will someone bitch slap me? Time to go back to work…
Flirt. Flirt shamelessly. Flirt like there is no fucking tomorrow. Flirt like your sperm count depends on it. Stop fearing that rejection because no one is too damn bored enough to observe you. Even fucking losers like the financial accountant, civil servants engineer, or the freaky IT guy have a decent chance of bagging for a night of worth of fun. When you flirt with a gorgeous woman, you will crack them up and it will force them to review why they are seated next to the fat old geezer with the old Mercedes instead. The God-blessed truth is that gorgeous women can’t make out with an expensive car, or their LV bags or smelly cash. So getting it on with a hot woman doesn’t have to be a wet dream. For those guys who think that have to build up themselves before they hit on the girls, let me tell you something, women not are not necessary looking for 1. Solution from you 2. Financial help 3. A ride 4. A husband. They don’t need people to fucking take care of them; they have their secretaries for that. Yes, there still women who thinks that they have a better chance of getting hit by a lightning than marrying after the age of 35, but something has changed. Women are like low hanging fruits waiting to be grabbed. Their selections ranged from the waitress, the office ladies, the undergrads and yes even the pole dancers. If you have self confidence issue, try flirting with the waitress first – just for warm up. Next time when you see her coming, tell her you couldn’t help but notice that she holds the bottle charmingly. When we flirt, the women whether they admit it or not – are thrilled by it and trust me, they will remember you for it. They enjoy it, desire it and crave it. There is a naughty little Paris Hilton in all of them - if you know how to smoke her out. Crucial note: There is a supra vast difference between smart, funny jokes that tease girls and sleazy, gutting-turning sexual offers that makes the girls run back to their parents. There is nothing more pathetic than a man who laughs at his own jokes. Remember brothers, CONFIDENCE does not equate COMPETENCE. So just be yourself, drop those thoughts of writing love poems or songs, sending 9,999 roses’ bullshit and grow some sense of humor because it is not the lovey-dovey or rich guy who always gets the girl, the funny one always does.
Well, people I have been sick yesterday and today, I had to take a break and stay home even though there is crap load of mixing work to be done in the studio. Norie is back with her bf for the weekend, so that pretty much leaves me, myself and I. So much so that I even have time to write the piece of self help crap above. I haven’t been going out these days, so there is any updates on my dirty sex-capes in Tokyo but I am going to have Fugu this week, so it would be a rather interesting first for me and I hope I won’t die before I get the chance to post about it. *Sips a mouth full of instant Miso soup, crosses fingers and starts recovering *
This is what you get when you have a naughty Japanese girl waiting for you to finish up your work. [Click on the above picture to large and look at all the icons there] I tell you, I used to have a very respectable desktop with only one recycle bin icon. But after Norie is thru with it, I have like shitload of homemade porn clip sitting on my desk top. How did it get there? Well, I was reading Waifon’s blog and I happen to stumble across this Sabul’s Blog and he had this post called “Anugerah Juara Sabul” which featured 60 over homemade porn flick. So to keep Norie occupied while I work, I showed her the link and ask her to knock herself out. When I return to her shortly, I could hear her laughing non-stop and my desktop has turned into a porn infested nest, Out of the 60 over porn clips from that site I have 56 clips sitting on my desktop, meaning that naughty girl have been watching almost all of them. She told me it was hilarious and she showed me the good ones, so I return I shall review the clips for you all:
Title: Awek Pakai Baju (Girl Wearing Dress)
Synopsis: a guy making video of her girlfriend getting dress, after she puts on her panties, her boyfriend ask her to take it off again because he forgot to zoom in her vagina. After that she proceed on to wear her clothes and “Tudung” veil . Famous quote from the clip” Jahatnya, Peragawati ni”.
Title: Tangga (Stairs)
Synopsis: I think the video maker is some sort of a peeping tom, making a video of a couple making out at a stairs. The killer part of this clip is at the end when the couple finally look up and found themselve looking straight at the camera man ..wukakakakkaka…”couple sudah femes”(Couple becoming famous)
Title: Tandas (toilet)
Synopsis: A couple making porn flick in the toilet, but with a horrid ending. The guy points his dick at the camera and wipe it with a some toilet paper. Wat –da-fuck!!!
Title: Tandas Lagi (toilet again)
Synopsis: typical porn in the public toilet, guy sits on toilet bowl and girls sits on guy’s dick, end of story.
Title: BJ ofis bertudung (BJ in office with veil)
Synopsis: a girl with “tudung” waiting for her bf to zoom in her face and when it was done she was given the signal to suck it.
Title: Kelam Kabut (Chaos)
Synopsis: Half way fucking, girl had to pick up an important call from come one important I guess. But the guy didn’t stop fucking.
Title: Awek Puting Besar (girl with big nipples)
Synopsis: Seeing is believing, god dammit.!!! Almost1/3 of the surface taken by it.
Title: Hotel
Synopsis: seeing that all the people in the clips were Malay, I was surprise to find a Cantonese speaking Chinese clip. It starts with the hero smoking a cigarette, but the heroin could wait anymore, so the hero quickly puts out the ciggy and started fucking the girl, but I think he didn’t put out the cigarette properly because smoke was coming out from below the camera and it look as if the hero was fucking the heroin until smoke came out. I must say this is the best homemade clip ever; got smoke effect some more XD.
Well, I think I better stop reviewing the clips before I really get label as a degenerate, if you are interested drop that Sabul guy’s site. So, you see I did watch porn with Norie, but things didn’t get all steamy because if it did, both of us would have been humping on the photocopy machine, the pantry, under the desk or on the server like wilder beasts. But the porn left us with aching stomach because we laugh too hard.But it was all good and educative for Norie because she got to see how a girl who wears “Tudung” look like. God I do hope she doesn’t think that all the porn in our region is a fucking joke.
Beside, being able to watch comical porn while we were in the office, Norie and I decided to make our own ringtone, so that it can be our caller ID. So we used all the equipment and instrument in the studio and came up with this. Man I love being in the studio. The cutest thing about Norie is when she gets excited, she will momentary forget that I am not Japanese and belt out a thousand super fast Japanese words that makes me blur and that was what happened here.
This is what you get when you have a naughty Japanese girl waiting for you to finish up your work. [Click on the above picture to large and look at all the icons there] I tell you, I used to have a very respectable desktop with only one recycle bin icon. But after Norie is thru with it, I have like shitload of homemade porn clip sitting on my desk top. How did it get there? Well, I was reading Waifon’s blog and I happen to stumble across this Sabul’s Blog and he had this post called “Anugerah Juara Sabul” which featured 60 over homemade porn flick. So to keep Norie occupied while I work, I showed her the link and ask her to knock herself out. When I return to her shortly, I could hear her laughing non-stop and my desktop has turned into a porn infested nest, Out of the 60 over porn clips from that site I have 56 clips sitting on my desktop, meaning that naughty girl have been watching almost all of them. She told me it was hilarious and she showed me the good ones, so I return I shall review the clips for you all:
Title: Awek Pakai Baju (Girl Wearing Dress)
Synopsis: a guy making video of her girlfriend getting dress, after she puts on her panties, her boyfriend ask her to take it off again because he forgot to zoom in her vagina. After that she proceed on to wear her clothes and “Tudung” veil . Famous quote from the clip” Jahatnya, Peragawati ni”.
Title: Tangga (Stairs)
Synopsis: I think the video maker is some sort of a peeping tom, making a video of a couple making out at a stairs. The killer part of this clip is at the end when the couple finally look up and found themselve looking straight at the camera man ..wukakakakkaka…”couple sudah femes”(Couple becoming famous)
Title: Tandas (toilet)
Synopsis: A couple making porn flick in the toilet, but with a horrid ending. The guy points his dick at the camera and wipe it with a some toilet paper. Wat –da-fuck!!!
Title: Tandas Lagi (toilet again)
Synopsis: typical porn in the public toilet, guy sits on toilet bowl and girls sits on guy’s dick, end of story.
Title: BJ ofis bertudung (BJ in office with veil)
Synopsis: a girl with “tudung” waiting for her bf to zoom in her face and when it was done she was given the signal to suck it.
Title: Kelam Kabut (Chaos)
Synopsis: Half way fucking, girl had to pick up an important call from come one important I guess. But the guy didn’t stop fucking.
Title: Awek Puting Besar (girl with big nipples)
Synopsis: Seeing is believing, god dammit.!!! Almost1/3 of the surface taken by it.
Title: Hotel
Synopsis: seeing that all the people in the clips were Malay, I was surprise to find a Cantonese speaking Chinese clip. It starts with the hero smoking a cigarette, but the heroin could wait anymore, so the hero quickly puts out the ciggy and started fucking the girl, but I think he didn’t put out the cigarette properly because smoke was coming out from below the camera and it look as if the hero was fucking the heroin until smoke came out. I must say this is the best homemade clip ever; got smoke effect some more XD.
Well, I think I better stop reviewing the clips before I really get label as a degenerate, if you are interested drop that Sabul guy’s site. So, you see I did watch porn with Norie, but things didn’t get all steamy because if it did, both of us would have been humping on the photocopy machine, the pantry, under the desk or on the server like wilder beasts. But the porn left us with aching stomach because we laugh too hard.But it was all good and educative for Norie because she got to see how a girl who wears “Tudung” look like. God I do hope she doesn’t think that all the porn in our region is a fucking joke.
Beside, being able to watch comical porn while we were in the office, Norie and I decided to make our own ringtone, so that it can be our caller ID. So we used all the equipment and instrument in the studio and came up with this. Man I love being in the studio. The cutest thing about Norie is when she gets excited, she will momentary forget that I am not Japanese and belt out a thousand super fast Japanese words that makes me blur and that was what happened here.
something I left for mike
